Like shit

I've haven't been sleeping well at all this week. My mind has been racing and I can't seem to turn it off. I get sleepy at a normal time, to the point where my eyelids become so heavy... but the minute I turn the light off my mind starts it's spinning. Turning things over and over, again and again.

I don't even want to type it... it's like giving it power if I do. I'm anxious, but I need to appear calm and collected. I need to be the pillar of support in this. I just think of all the times Leah has been by my side in the ER, or during my long hospital stays.

I haven't been eating all that much. And when I do it's not good fuel. My energy is just low. I haven't been in the box all that much either. I plan to go this evening. Do Rico. I need get my head focused on something, and I think a crushing WOD will be the thing to get it in line.

All this is culminating in my insomnia, overall lethargy and mental disconnect from my daily responsibilities.

Optimism

As many rounds as possible in 12 minutes of:

5 Hang Power Cleans, 145lbs 55lbs

7 Toes to Bar

10 Wall Ball Shots, 20lb 6lb ball

5+ 5T2B

Toes to Bar, my nemesis. I did chain 3 together during my 4th round. That was pretty awesome. I guess I just have to work on it. Chock it up on the list of weaknesses. 

Short attention span. 

Good night. 

Dark cloud hanging over me

Weighted push-up 1-1-1-1-1-1-1 reps

My weights: 10-15-20-25F-22.5-22.5-25!

Wowsers, I did better than I thought. I just got a legit push up like 2 months ago. I still use the band when WODs call for high reps of PUs. Therefore my expectations were low. 

Optional WOD:

21-15-9

Push ups

KB Swings 1/2 pood

Knees to Bar

My Time- ~9:25

I think this is what made my arms sore today. 

Not Manion at all

"Manion"

Seven  Four rounds for time of:

Run 400 meters

135 pound Back squat Push Press, 29 reps

My time- 25:50

We all know I hate running. With that in mind, I didn't really suffer as much as I'd like to dramatize. The runs were not so bad. The last round, my legs felt sooooo heavy, but I never stopped running. The Push Presses were deceivingly tiring. 29 is a lot. 6:30 per round? I don't know how I feel about that. 

Alyssa did her first WOD today. Same as me but 3 rounds with a 15# bar. 

Alyssa- 17:03

Alyssa says she loves Crossfit already and wants to continue to do it in a box near her. I will find a way to finance it, even if it means splitting it with my Mom. She couldn't stop talking about how cool and nice and friendly everyone... And how hot all the guys were. Oh, 13 year olds. Also, I showed Alyssa how the kip and she picked it up right away. I was super impressed. Kids have such malleable brains. 

Last night I slept for over 9 hours. And it was deep. I guess I needed it. My body is healing. We swam in the afternoon, then the WOD, then we went for a night swim. I'm going to sleep soooo good tonight, as well. 

 

Love is a verb

2010 Northwest Regional Event 1

Three rounds for time of:

135 pound Overhead squat, 10 reps

50 Double-unders

I have had the most amazing day! I am soooo blessed and happy and fulfilled. Spending time with Alyssa reminds me how the simple things are what matter. 

This WOD has fun. I liked it. My squats felt solid. The weight was still challenging. The DUs were maddening. My arms wouldn't turn in the 3rd round. I'm happy with my time. 

Soooo sleepy. The good kind of tired. 

Unfettered

45 Double unders

45 Cleans (135#)  Hang Power Clean (55#)

45 Ring dips (w/ 1" band)

45 Double unders

I feel like I'm really close to ring dips without a band. This work out definitely helped in building more strength in my arms. 

I really liked this WOD. After about 10 HP Cleans, 55#s was starting to feel heavy. Towards the last 20 reps, I found myself having to really use my entire body to jump the weight up on my shoulders. I have bruising on my clavicles today. 

My last 45 DUs were grossly bad. I couldn't get the rope under my feet. It took my 6 tries to get my last 9 DUs. Pretty fuckin' sad. I should have been sub 16 mins, seriously. Whatever. 

I did make it back into the box for open gym later on in the day. I was just messing around, practicing the butterfly kip when I felt it kinda all come together. Diso said I looked good. I kept at it when I finally felt myself getting a lot of air... I got my chin at bar height! So I kept trying over and over, when I finally got my chin above the bar. Now I can't tell if I'm above the bar or not, so I had to have Sto confirm it. I'm totally pleased! After only 2 weeks of learning and practicing the movement. 

Shows what you can teach the brain and body after consistent repetition and practice. 

Rich and full

Three rounds for time of:

50 pound dumbbell Waiter walk, 100 meters, Right arm

30 GHD AB-Mat Sit ups

50 pound dumbbell Waiter walk, 100 meters, Left arm

30 Back Extensions  Good Mornings 28#s

Final time- 22:35

It didn't feel like 22mins. It felt like it went by fast. I didn't run with the DB over my head. 25#s was fuckin' heavy... and I was feeling it in my back, esp after the Good mornings. All I kept thinking about was not effing up my back. So I was careful and deliberate in all my movements. 

May peace be with you

For time:

21 Pull-ups

21 Handstand Push-ups

18 Pull-ups

18 Handstand Push-ups

15 Pull-ups

15 Handstand Push-ups

12 Pull-ups

12 Handstand Push-ups

9 Pull-ups

9 Handstand Push-ups

6 Pull-ups

6 Handstand Push-ups

3 Pull-ups

3 Handstand Push-ups

Handstand push-ups are "nose to floor" and pull-ups are "strict" or non-kipping.

I used a 1" band for my strict PU, and used the 20" box with a 10# plate and a pad, which probably added about another 3" to the height. 

I feel like i'm getting stronger with the HSPU, at least with the pressing motion. It's definitely tough. I'm also glad to work on my strict pull up. Even with the band my arms were going to failure after 4-5 reps. I tried for the first time to change my grip on the bar, the way Diso does with just his fingers, not his palm; and in doing so I cramped a muscle deep under my pectoral. Using just my fingers  on the bar was difficult and I'll definitely need to practice it. It obviously engages other muscles in the pull up, but I would really like to save my palms from more abuse. They are just plain raw, making it difficult to be on the bar for too long. 

I also tried G's method of switching up hand grips; one turned for a pull up, and the left turned for a chin up. I like it. 

I had the most intense dreams last night. Strangely enough, I also had the most restful sleep in a long time. 

Ladies Oly

I could watch the pure beauty of all these Oly lifts over and over again. At minute 2 is where it gets epic. I wish I knew the weights on the bar.

Love is an energy

Snatch one rep every minute on the minute for 15 minutes.

My hip does not hurt. I can pick things off the ground without discomfort... BUT I have that feeling of tension, constantly, feeling like I have to "pop" my hip. Sleep is not going to be restful. Thank goodness tomorrow is all arms. 

I am wearing my love on my sleeve. I'm giving it freely. I'm open to receiving it, as well. Today it feels easy. 

Too much

I could have kept going. 20 Min WODs are interesting cause you eventually switch over to aerobic phase... And cause I've been Crossfitting for over a year and 8 months, I have decent endurance. So when 20 mins hit, I still had some fuel in my tank. I mean, with surviving WODs like "Murph" (67 mins) or Filthy Fifty (38 mins) 20 mins seems to be that middle time where your body isn't at high intensities, nor is it completely depleted. 

I think I should have made it a 12 min AMRAP and gone really hard. 

Either way, I did feel good after the wod. My arms are gonna sore. I was able to do my 15 DUs unbroken for 6 rounds out of the 11. 

An aside:

I've really really been trying to tap into all those virtues that seem to allude me, like: patience, acceptance, 

loving EVERYONE. I feel sometimes I'm being swallowed up by the crazy, little voices in my head... The ones that cause suffering. I'm trying to have a healthy relationship with my suffering. The more I resist the more I FEEL it. I've been employing deep breathing a lot lately. It's like I have to talk myself down from the ledge every FUCKIN' day.... Then rationale sets in, and I feel foolish.

Does this have to do with some deep seeded issue of inadequacy or self-loathing? It's soooo tiring. Why can't I just stay grounded in my heart all the time?

I just want to cry.

Speak truthfully

Five rounds for time of:

15 foot L-rope climb, 1 ascent (anchored)

5 Parallette handstand push-ups  Tripod on the box

45 pound barbell One-legged overhead squat, 10 reps  20 lunges, 10# overhead

The rope climb was difficult today. Tripod on the box challenging. It always is. And the lunges were ok. They were just time consuming. 

My hip/back is pretty inflamed. My hips are just sore from the volume of wall ball and box jumps I did yesterday. 

Tomorrow, is DT, which is heavy heavy heavy. So I'm thinking of doing shuttle runs tomorrow, at intervals. And of course work on  my ring dips and muscle up transition. 

Morrison

"Morrison"

50-40-30-20 and 10 rep rounds of:

Wall ball shots, 20 pound ball 6 pound ball 

Box jump, 24 inch box  20" Box

Kettlebell swings, 1.5 pood .75 pood

Long. All 3 movements are very taxing. 150 reps of each. The box jumps just killed me. I felt so slow. I would jump up and step down. My ankles were killing me. 

My 50 round and 40 round took me the same amount of time, about 11 mins. I was already soooo gassed. 

I knew I wanted to do this WOD as a detoxifier to the weekend. I ate freely and without guilt. Back on the wagon... I missed Crossfit. As I laid on the ground after I did my last KB swing, all the blood pulsing quickly in all my biggest muscles groups, and the heat coming off of my body, drenched in sweat... I almost giggled just cause I loved that brink of death feeling. 

Must sleep now. 

Thank you WOD GEAR!

WOD Gear came shot a video of the gang at Paradiso Crossfit. They do lovely work, it turned out great.


Paradiso Crossfit from WOD Gear on Vimeo.

Light Snatch

30 Snatch (light) not for time. I'm pleased to see that my timing on my jump is exactly when it's suppose to happen, just at "pockets." I get to full hip extension; this is where all the power is generated to get the bar weightless and high enough for you to drop under the bar and fully extend your arms with shoulders active.