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"Nate"

Complete as many rounds in twenty minutes as you can of:

2 Muscle-ups (I was seated on the floor with 1" band)

4 Handstand Push-ups (I did the tri-pod on the 20" box)

8 2-Pood Kettlebell swings (I did 1 pood)

Hard to see: 8 rounds + 1 seated Muscle up. 

Nate was really taxing. The 20 minutes felt like it went by very quickly. While I enjoyed the struggle of doing the seated MU, it was very tiring-- this part of the triplet is what zapped me. The HSPU on the box was difficult just cause my arms were just killed from the MU. The KB swings I did straight through... Quite proud that I pulled off 1 Pood. Not going back to 3/4 Pood :) [Stop the presses! I just read in 2 blog entries I wrote in September that I have used 1 pood before--- damn, when did I go back to 3/4 pood? What's wrong with me?]

Overall, I was able to work on my MU transition; I've learned how explosive you have to be during the transition, really popping my head threw, throwing my body forward while pulling up. Then once in that bottom ring dip position, it was now the job of my arms to get me to that full support at the top of the rings, with full extension. And that is where I struggle, the arm strength to do the ring dip. My primary goal on the whiteboard goal list is "Bandless ring dip." So that is what my focus is on... I'm going to give it the same exact attention I gave to my goal of getting DUs. 

It feels like Thursday but it's only Tuesday. *sigh* I guess I just can't wait for it to be the weekend. 

I'm GOLDEN

Every minute on the minute for 30 minutes, perform the following:

1 Squat Snatch

20 Double Unders

I think I did well. I'm a little upset that I didn't last longer doing the 1/20 DUs on the minute. I was having trouble getting into a rhythm during minute 9 and 10. I literally had 1 DU left when the minute changed over. I was pretty bummed about it. so with 20 mins left I managed to fit in 13 rounds. Within those 13 rounds, I was "greased" up enough at that point to really land my snatch. I went light for 2 reasons: I wanted to work on perfecting my technique, and two, my back is still acting up. When I commit to the snatch and I stick the landing... that feeling of being solid at the bottom of the squat, mid line tight, arms locked out, shoulders active... the feeling is GOLDEN. 

I was able to do 20 DUs straight through 5 times out of the 20 rounds. Felt pretty awesome :) 2 of those five times I collapsed on the floor with retching, pukie feeling in my tummy. Thinking back, I was pretty miserable the whole last 15 mins. So I'm quite happy that I survived it. 

At the end of the 30 min clock, I laid out on my back and felt the blood rush to my face. I felt ALIVE. I immediately iced my lower back/left nalga. As well, I consumed a sweet potato a la Rico. 

It is now 11PM, and my "back" is bad. I'm not even sure if it's my back. The pain can be described as radiating from the hip joint/socket, shooting up my back. It feels like electrical shocks. There are no specific movements that trigger the pain, but it has now encompassed bending forward from the hip, turning from the hip with feet in place, sitting with my weight on that left side, standing with weight on that left leg... There really isn't time when I'm absolutely in comfort. I'm concerned. I'm not sure what to do. Actually I know what I have to do, but I'm a stubborn, hard-headed donkey and I really don't feel like taking time off from training. 

Tonight I plan to go to 24hour CVS and buy some epsom salts and have a long soak in the tub. I can't wait. Another 10 hour day at work. Tomorrow looks like a 14 hour day. Shoot me. Is it Sunday yet? Having brunch with the hot cougars on Sunday. We're actually coming into the Hotel. I think I'm going to get schnookered. I'm starting to feel really unappreciated and overworked. In response to feeling overwhelmed, I emotionally ate today; I had Linguini and Clams. While I completely enjoyed the dish while consuming it, I felt really gorss and guilty afterwards. Tomorrow is a new day to make better choices :)

Besides work and this injury, my spirits are high. That feeling of yearning has left me. I'm not in want. So all the good things that happen feel like a BONUS.  

Into the Spiritual Fire I go

Tonight is the mark of something new. I am born again to a new way of thinking. I will let go all preconceived notions of how things should be, and come to accept the way things are. I wholly embrace the positive energy that flows my way and no longer smite the good deeds that don't meet my inflated expectations. Tomorrow I will be grateful for the things that lift me up, and remind me that I am worthy of the kindness of the friends I keep around me. I hope to accept that receiving is as pleasurable as giving. I will try my best to not place conditions on my loved ones, and if I do, and they do no meet my condition, I will not punish them for it. How can they live up to something they do not know they were measured up to?

I am not disappointed in myself. I loved the best way I knew how. I hope you challenge my love and expand my horizons. Together we will learn so much about ourselves.

Take me. I surrender. I'm open to feeling everything inside.  


Even the bad stuff.